April 20, 2015
(This is part
of a 365 project during my 70th year where I write and illustrate a blog on
each day's gift.)
My days wake up wearing various surfaces. They
can be smooth, reflective, choppy or full of holes. Today is one that is full
of holes with many unresolved problems, chores and decisions. While in the middle of a
day like this, I feel like a worm crawling in and out of holes while losing
sight of lateral movement and direction. With Swiss cheese
time, frustration abounds and distracts with waiting and uncertainty. Sometimes
I have to remind myself that I can allow the holes to transform from empty
pitfalls into explorations. After all, it is not a sin to entertain unfocused
hours.
When I was teaching 7th grade full-time
and working on my doctorate, I found the best approach to these days was to walk
two miles in a nearby park. During the walk, I gave up trying to focus and
allowed meandering thoughts to flow as my body moved. I abolished my
mind-critic which fought the flow and I gave up my control. Surprisingly,
during these empty moments, creative thoughts and eureka sparkles wandered into
my head. The irony is that we have to let go in order to move forward.
Life is not about control. It is about the
experience, the evolving. A ribbon cannot be tied into a bow if both ends are
pulled tightly in opposite directions. The older I grow, the more I’ve learned
that I just have to go with the flow.
My
gift today is flow.
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You can find links to my other posts on this project here:
http://bjschupp.blogspot.com/2014/12/365-gifts.html
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